man, fuck it

i really wished that one day, some day, some sort of friendship could have been possible but at this point…not sure if that’s gonna happen, and it sucks dude. more importantly what blows, is knowing that you can’t even trust your fucking business with those who are closest to you when you thought you always could. i can admit i have no one to blame, but there’s no such thing as “best friends” to me anymore - if you’ve been in my life longer than someone else who came and went, you should know where your loyalties lie. and if you’re stupid enough to fuck with my loyalty, you deserve none of it at all. go on, toy with my trust. /rant.